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Friday, 14 November 2003
coffee and antidepressants
Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
You may feel locked in a bind of deep emotion and stubborn attitudes with close friends or lovers, dear Scorpio. Perhaps it is hard for you to say what you really feel because you are under the impression that you are being tested and judged by everyone around you. Try not to let your ego get in the way of a good time. Say what you feel without getting worried about how others will react.
wow! folgers and effexor is a great cocktail. maybe it's the prozac i snagged from my steppdad earlier. either way, it's nice to feel this high, this up. especially since that fucking trazadone gives me the worst nightmares. last night i dreamnt canada attacked us preemptively; blew up my house and everything. the dream was strange, skipping from scene to scene but always returning to this thin, silvery stream of lunacy that held my unconscious in terror. my dead aunt drinking two bottles of bailey's to forget about her best friends death, two bikers who lived above my basement room with the constant intent of raping me, a flood, a motel room where none of my friends wanted me around, etc.. what the fuck is the difference between "legal" drugs and the ones i was taking? jesus, at least my dreams were happier then.
Posted by annafrancetx
at 12:16 PM EST
Thursday, 6 November 2003
thursday, bloody thursday
Horoscope (by Astrocenter.com)
As an impassioned Scorpio, dear Scorpio, you have a tendency to live your life vicariously through your partner. Yet, today you may come to the realization that this isn't what is healthiest for you. You may realize that you give more of yourself than you get back. You are being drained of your energy. In fact, you are almost completely out! Be selfish today! You need to do something for yourself for once! And lord knows, it's about time!
It's really sick and twisted how little I can care sometimes. It's freaky. And scary. I found myself in that woman's office trying to wring every emotion I could out of her. I mean, it's ridiculous for anybody ever to need that much attention. How much more can I get out of people and still be fucking up? I hate these days!!!!! I can't see anything inside myself worth saving, and I'm afraid my sanity is losing it's hold. I don't care what anybody says, I miss Allen and I wish I could talk to him. He'd say something funny and help me not to think about it anymore. Which is all I can do, really. Today was one of those days that's really ugly and comfortable at the same time.
Novemberthefifthtwothousand,
Day1, therapy, girl but cool,
anna france
Posted by annafrancetx
at 10:17 PM EST
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